FORMING A NEW IDENTITY

In my last post, I suggested that our public discourse is now infused with anger that we are losing our souls….. (https://incarnation-place.com/) Here, I look more closely at what that means for us as a society, and how we can re-orient toward a life of flourishing.

Recently, esteemed documentary filmmaker Ken Burns interviewed Krista Tippett, a best-selling author and award-winning broadcaster. Their conversation was a fascinating and wide-ranging conversation about faith and spirituality. (https://www.pbs.org/kenburns/unum/playlist/

Krista Tippett suggests that humanity today is at an evolutionary inflection point. No longer guided by traditional religious teaching, humanity is struggling with the absence of trustworthy guides for moral life. Until recently, religious institutions were the primary vehicle for moral formation and identity.

Moral formation and identity are not only about “good behavior”. Rather, morality refers to the larger question that philosophers, spiritual leaders, and theologians around the world, throughout history, have pursued: what does it mean for humans to lead a worthwhile life? 

Christianity offers the language of “virtues and vices”. Virtues are qualities such as generosity, humility, honesty, kindness, and patience. Vices are the opposite of virtues, and include qualities such as greed, pride, envy, and wrath. The pursuit of virtues produces a moral life; the pursuit of vices corrupts life. This is central to the moral guidance given in western religions, including Christianity, Judaism and Islam. Eastern spiritual traditions, such as Buddhism, Taoism, Confucianism, and Vedanta, also echo this teaching. Eastern traditions use words such as wisdom, compassion, respect, and equanimity to name humanity’s highest ideals.

Today we live in a society increasingly dominated by the language of division, engaged in a perpetual state of war. Leaders incite their followers to attack, condemn, and exact revenge. Individuals and communities increasingly isolate from one another, view others as enemies, and justify wrath. People refuse to take responsibility for their actions. 

We are losing our souls because we have become entangled in a web of everything that goes against virtue. The path of rage, vengeance, and greed can energize, focus the mind, and give a sense of purpose: “eliminate the other guy!” This mindset is contagious, so it’s no wonder our public discourse is full of this forceful and threatening language. It is also addictive. Like all addictive behavior, individuals and groups weave their thinking with lies and half-truths, cloaked in the expression of a victim identity. Forgiveness has no place. Our  country’s trajectory is fostering the very worst in us. We are spiraling down in a path of spiritual decay. We are losing our souls, collectively and individually.

Tippett observes that, in the United States, it has been only a few generations since religion served as the source of moral guidance. The fracturing of religious institutions leaves an enormous gap in our moral imagination and vocabulary. As Tippett says, we are at an inflection point. Our calling today is to articulate a common vision for our human life, a vision that captures the moral guidance of virtue and the turning away from vices; an identity that fosters our basic needs for connection, belonging, and acceptance. This is a spiritual vision, says Tippett, that transcends religion. How we respond has far-reaching consequences, not only for our society but for the future of generations to come.

Readers of this blog know I am deeply influenced by Buddhist practices which help bring alive some of the essential teachings of Jesus. As my son once said, “Jesus tells me what to do, Buddha tells me how to do it.” Jesus tells us to love God with all our heart, mind, and soul and to love our neighbor as ourselves. Buddha tells us to study our minds in the service of wisdom and compassion toward self and others. 

How can we turn the tide toward a more wholesome and life-giving society? Here are some suggestions. I encourage you to offer your own thoughts below in the comments section. 

~ Build coalitions. Find people in your community who share your basic values. Connect with them. Listen. Take up a group activity. Read a book together, or watch a film together, and discuss it. 

~ Engage with people who share different opinions from yours. Learn to listen. Ask questions to help you better understand what needs and concerns underlie and fuel differing opinions. Can you find one or two core values you agree on? However, the conversation ends, strive to part with respect. 

~ Focus on intention. Keep clear what values most deeply inspire you. Strive to live into these values in all that you do. And begin again, no matter how often you fall.

~ Turn to spiritual teachings that speak to what you most believe is wise. This Christian teaching guides me daily: God’s presence in is continually moving within us, no matter how dark and painful the journey, bringing us back to love. This reality, in the words of theologian Robert Mulholland, is: “… a long steady process of grace, working far beyond our knowing and understanding…” (M. Robert Mulholland, Invitation to a Journey, Intervarsity Press Books, 2016, p. 26)

May we know peace, within ourselves and in the outer world.

REFLECTION QUESTIONS

~ How do you respond to the ideas presented here? What do you agree with? What do you disagree with? 

~ How do you engage with those who make choices or hold opinions you disagree with? 

~ What helps you maintain respect for others you disagree with?

Again, I encourage you to offer your thoughts, reflections and questions in the comments section.

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MIND OF CHRIST

I am deeply concerned about our country, the state of our public discourse, and the vitriol that infuses our language and thought. We are trapped in an “us vs. them” mindset and we turn anyone who disagrees into the “enemy.” Political leaders freely promise “retribution” against anyone who they perceive as disloyal. 

Hatred is nothing new. But the hostility that infects our discourse today violates the principles which infuse our rich heritage of philosophy, religion, and scientific thought, namely the search for truth, wisdom, and compassion. In short, we have lost our moorings, choosing to anchor in chaos.

My deeper concern is that we are losing our souls. 

Theologian Richard Rohr says:

“We live with an inherent dignity by reason of our very creation, a dignity that no human has given to us and no human can take from us. All things created bear the divine fingerprint…” (Richard Rohr, Yes, and… Daily Meditations, Franciscan Media, copyright 2013, p. 211)

In our current climate, we are running away from our inherent dignity. We are moving away from the best of who we are.  Instead we remain suspicious and fearful. We excuse dishonesty and justify actions that humiliate others. An honest search for truth and commitment to wisdom and compassion are in short supply.

This is not merely a political, social, or cultural problem. We are living through a spiritual crisis, In biblical terms, we are choosing the kingdom of darkness rather than striving for the kingdom of Light.

What is the alternative? I turn to St. Paul who suggests that for Christians, the challenge is to be “transformed by the renewal of your mind.” (Romans 12:2a). For St. Paul this means: 

“… In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus…” (St. Paul’s letter to the Philippians 2:5)

St. Paul is a complex figure. I don’t pretend to accept everything he says. But his urging that we strive to take on the mind of Christ captures me, and offers a way to move through these times.

What is the “mindset of Christ”? St. Paul puts it this way:

“… as people of God, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. (Colossians 3: 12-14)

Jesus tells us that following Him is a journey into love, which is our deepest nature. Just as plants turn toward light, our natural inclination is toward giving and receiving love. This is the essence of the Christian journey: learning how to love, trusting that God loves us. Much of the journey is discovering what keeps us from love, learning to surrender, and allowing God to move us in a new direction.  

The journey of love is a process that unfolds throughout our lives. My experience is that the spiritual journey is like walking through a labyrinth. We walk forward, taking many side trips, sometimes walking backward. Usually, only in hindsight do we recognize God presence through all of our experience. In the ancient words of Psalm 139, “You have searched me, Lord, and you know me….” (Psalm 139:1)

Specifically, day to day, how do we take on the mind of Christ? Here are some practical actions that help me through these days:

~ Take time each day to pray. 

~ Turning off the news, especially limiting exposure to angry arguments, name-calling, and violence. (Newspapers, magazines, blogs, podcasts, etc.)

~ Clarifying my values, what I truly care about, and how I want to live today accordingly. This includes admitting my limitations and examining what gets in my way of living according to my values. 

~ Cultivating supportive, reciprocal relationships. People with whom I share honestly about myself and they share honestly about their lives.  

~ Say “yes” more than “no” to opportunities to help others.

~ Pursuing relationships and activities that bring me joy. 

~ Resting. Sometimes this means taking a nap. Other times, resting is playing a game of solitaire or paint-by-number.

In closing, I leave you with these words from St. Paul:

“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus…” (Romans 8:38-39)

FOR REFLECTION

~ What do you find helpful during this time? 

~ What does taking on the mind of Christ mean for you? 

~ What hinders you from trying to take on the mind of Christ?

~ What supports you in toward this aspiration?

Please share your thoughts and reflections in the comments section. 

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COMING ALIVE IN LOVE

“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive….”  

   (Howard Thurman, mentor to Martin Luther King)

This week, witnessing the solar eclipse was, for many, a memorable experience of coming alive. News reports featured people saying, for example: “We were so moved. It felt like a genuine sense of unity, with each other and with the universe.” “I felt a sense of belonging that I’ve never felt before!” “I cried the tears of joy that I cannot explain.” I did not see the eclipse, but hearing these stories brought me great joy. Coming alive can be contagious.

Easter is a time when the church comes alive. On March 31, the message rang out, “He is risen!” This is Easter, the celebration of the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Hopeful congregants fill churches with soaring music and beautiful flowers. The spirit of joy shines through. Churches feel very much alive. Many homes (Christian and non-Christian) host Easter egg hunts and offer baskets full of candy, bringing squeals of delight all around.

The deeper message of Easter is that physical death is not the end of life. Christians have lots of ways of envisioning the afterlife, including hierarchies of angels. Buddhists, Hindus, and other religions around the world offer images of an afterlife. However one envisions what happens after physical death, Easter is an offering. The Easter message is that Jesus Christ is with us, guiding, holding, loving us. God is loving us into life, into “coming alive,” even until the moment of death.  

The center of the story is love. Interestingly, some who witnessed the solar eclipse echoed this theme. Many who proclaimed “not to be religious” said that witnessing the eclipse was a “spiritual experience.” They felt a sense of “safety”, of “being held” in a universal field.

So why does the Christian story, the story of God taking human form, living, dying, and rising, matter? And what does this story mean for you and me, right here, right now?

Howard Thurman was a theologian, an author and teacher. He understood that human beings have a special place in God’s cosmology. God created humans “in His image” to love and be loved. Thurman’s message is that being fully alive is humanity’s path of expressing love.

Writer and Celtic theologian J. Philip Newell speaks of love as God’s golden thread that binds us together. Newell writes:

“If the golden thread were to be ripped out of the clothing the whole garment would unravel. So it is with the image of God woven into the mystery of our being. If somehow it were to be extracted we would cease to exist.” (J. Philip Newell, Echo of the Soul: The Sacredness of the Human Body, Morehouse Publishing, 2000, page xi.)

Ideally, the Church is God’s offering, a divine organism known through Jesus Christ, to help us awaken to God’s love within and among us. It is to be a living body of Christ, a community of healing to a suffering world. The Church is, as the Zen koan says, the finger pointing at the moon, what scripture calls “the kingdom of God.”

From a young age, I felt a powerful pull towards Buddhist messages of compassion, as readers of this blog are aware. (See these posts: https://wordpress.com/post/incarnation-place.com/137 ; https://wordpress.com/post/incarnation-place.com/110 )

Today, Buddhist study and meditation practice deeply inform my Christian journey of faith. In Buddhist teachings, I learn practical tools for developing compassion. I also learn to identify and work with the obstacles to compassion, in myself and others. 

Buddhist meditation is for me a doorway into a deeper sense of authenticity, with myself and in relationship with others and the world. I learn how to make space for the depth of suffering and the examination of human sins, like pride, anger, greed, and so on, in myself and others.

Years ago, one of my sons dove into Zen practice and invited me to join him. I went on retreat at a Zen Buddhist retreat center. As I entered the zendo (Zen meditation hall), I felt a sense of what I can only call Divine Presence. It was so palpable I felt as though I could reach out and scoop it up. I felt startled. I’d been taught that this Presence was available only in Church, associated with Jesus and the Holy Spirit. But the feeling was unmistakable. No thought, confusion or doubt — just a knowing, as if held in the arms of Divine mystery.

Zen challenged me to give up my most cherished images of who I am, who God is, and trust that something new will emerge. Sometimes, I feel confusion, fear, and bewilderment. It is hard to stay in the space of “not knowing” who I am or what I believe. Yet, as I practice, a feeling of tremendous relief comes over me. It’s a relief to admit “not knowing”, to accept feelings of overwhelm and doubt to surface and speak their reality.

Through Buddhist meditation, a deeper sense of authenticity emerges, the very thing I was missing as a “practicing Christian”. This is a felt sense of belonging in myself, in the world, in God. This is an experience of Life breathing through me, in my body and mind. I come alive.

These are examples of what coming alive looks like in my life:

~ Various forms of writing, teaching, and coaching, including this blog

~ Time with my grandchildren

~ Walks in nature

I have also learned to set boundaries. I am not well suited for certain forms of service. I accept these limitations in myself and encourage to support to discover to do the same.

My life may look similar or very different from yours. My husband, for example, volunteers on medical mission trips in rural communities, often in Asia. He also volunteers in a shop, helping restore antique airplanes. They restore each airplane to ensure that it will fly. Bret thrives in pursuing these activities. Here, he comes alive.

QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION

~ What makes you come alive? 

~ Do you struggle to answer that question? If so, what is this struggle for you? 

~ What helps you know you are not alone in the struggle?

Feel free to post your responses in the comments section.

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PALM SUNDAY

For Christians, today is known as Palm Sunday, the beginning of Holy Week. This is the time of year where Christians are shepherded through the painful story of Jesus’ crucifixion and the joyful celebration of his resurrection. 

The Palm Sunday liturgy (worship service) is among the longest, most complex, and difficult in the entire Christian liturgical calendar. The service begins with a joyful scene of Jesus riding into Jerusalem to cheering crowds, ushering him in waving palm leaves. (Hence the name “Palm Sunday”). This celebration expresses the community’s love and appreciation for Jesus, who dedicated his life to ministering to the people, healing, teaching, and preaching. His primary message: “Love God with all your heart and soul. And love your neighbor as you have been loved.” This is a beautiful message and his ministry is a powerful expression of it. 

Then the tables turn. Judas, one of Jesus’ disciples, betrays him, telling the authorities that Jesus is not who he says he is; that He is an imposter. And so begins what happens when one negative voice catches hold of others. A group turns into a mob who believe the lie and the mob becomes angry and violent. The authorities proclaim Jesus is an imposter and sentence Him to death by execution. 

Amid this chaos, even Jesus’ closest friends betray him. They fall asleep when he implores them to stay awake. And Peter, his most intimate companion, denies even knowing him.

The Palm Sunday service is like liturgical whiplash! This story, repeated each year, is horrific. It begins with love and appreciation for Jesus’s ministry and ends with a trial that condemns him to death on a cross. Fear, anger and betrayal ripple through the community like fire, turning love into hate-filled violence, shouting that Jesus is an imposter. “Crucify him,” they yell!

As I write, I hear words of so many who jump to remind us that the crucifixion is not the end of the story. That is true. The resurrection of Jesus is around the corner, according to the scriptures, three days after his physical death. The resurrection comes next Sunday, known as Easter Sunday. This will be the extravagant celebration of Jesus’ resurrection, the proclamation that Jesus lives eternally as the Christ.

Some Christians prefer to ignore Palm Sunday and jump ahead to Easter. It’s easy to understand why. Easter is a whole lot easier than facing the horror of Jesus’s crucifixion when “….Christ is massacred in His members, torn limb from limb; God is murdered in men.”  (Thomas Merton, New Seeds of Contemplation, p. 71)

And yet God’s love is proclaimed throughout the story. His love is present to Jesus and the crowd who betrayed Him. This is the great power of Christian faith. The love of God that transcends all Life, no matter how dark. 

From a human perspective, this transcendent love seems to make no sense. How can a God of love allow so much suffering? This question haunted me for years. In moments, it can still seduce me. I’m not the only one.

Let’s be clear. Even Jesus had his doubts. As he hung on the cross, in the 9th hour, the scriptures tell us, Jesus exclaimed, “My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?”  (Matthew 27:46) 

His words are searing. Our hearts break, sensing his doubt, knowing moments of our own. 

This doubt in deep suffering is part of the journey of experiencing Love. The scripture tells us that Jesus’ last words on the cross are, “Jesus cried out in a loud voice, ‘Father, into your hands I commend my spirit’; and when he had said this, he breathed his last”. (Luke 23:44) Jesus died knowing that God the Father had not abandoned him. 

The resurrection story is the ultimate proclamation of God’s love, no matter what, even death on a cross. However, Jesus could not experience the resurrection without going through the crucifixion. Neither can we.

The resurrection tells us that suffering is not the end of our journey, but is an essential element of it. The end is Love, and there is no end. Love was there at the beginning and carries through each moment of our lives, whether or not we know it or believe it. This is the Love that gives us the aliveness of life and extends beyond the grave. 

May we each find our own window into this truth.

QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION

  • Have you felt an absence of God in times of great suffering? How did this sense of absence affected your experience of suffering?
  • Have you found the presence of God in times of great suffering? What difference did this sense of presence make?
  • In your journey of faith, what role has doubt played?
  • What helps you deepen in faith? 

“In the sufferings of my heart and the brokenness of creation, open to me further the doors of the eternal, that through the pain…  I may be guided to You as the heart of life…” (J. Philip Newell, Sounds of the Eternal, William B. Eerdmans Publishing Company, 2002, p, 70)

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CONNECTION IN GRIEF & LOSS

“Welcoming everything that comes to us is the challenge. This is the secret to being fully alive.” (Francis Weller, The Wild Edge of Sorrow, page 8)

Connection is like the air we need to breathe. Humans need connection — with others and with our own selves. When we lose connection, our natural response is grief. 

Loss of connection comes in different forms: the physical death of a loved one, or our own impending death. Loss may come from illness that forces us to give up activities that once sustained us. We may go through the loss of a relationship, a dream, a home, a community. 

Connection and the grief from loss of connection is a cycle that threads through every human life. We cannot escape it. Yet society urges us to “move on”, “let it go”, “get moving.” We have little room for grief. This is especially true with the death of a parent or long-time partner.

Truthfully, we may prefer to “move on”. Grief hurts! It’s one of the most painful experiences that humans have. Why not ignore it? Eventually, we discover we can push grief away, but it remains inside us, awaiting our attention. It will re-surface, often when we least expect. 

Grief is a process, not an event. It follows its own schedule and comes in waves, which may come over weeks, months, or years. Each loss triggers its own grief, which may re-surface earlier experiences of loss. Unfortunately, we receive little guidance on what to expect or how to handle grief. It’s easier to ignore it. 

Francis Weller is a psychotherapist focusing specially on grief. His book, The Wild Edge of Sorrow, is a wise refection on grief. Weller never shies away from the pain of grief but urges us to consider that grief can be a tremendous teacher, leading us to a deeper appreciation of love. Grief spotlights what we most value in our relationships and guides us toward how we want to live beyond the loss. Weller identifies grief as “a basic human need… a deep encounter with an essential experience of being human.” (Francis Weller, The Wild Edge of Sorrow: Rituals of Renewal and the Sacred Work of Grief, North Atlantic Books, Berkeley, California, 2015, page xviii) 

The early loss of my mother shaped my childhood. For years, I cried myself to sleep, pleading with God and the Universe that she would return. She never did. I grew up thinking no loss would be this hard. Over the years, I experienced other losses which were painful, but losing Mom was the most challenging. 

In my 40s, I got a rude awakening. Between 1996 and 1998, three of my closest companions died. Grief overwhelmed me.  

In 1996, my father died after a long battle with cancer. Dad was my first God, against whom I compared all others. He was my hero, teacher, parent, guide, and best friend. He was also my drinking buddy. We spent many long hours, fueled with gin, lost in conversation about books and great ideas. As the evening wore on, the drinks increased, and our conversation shifted to making up stories about the people sitting next to us in the restaurant. When Dad died, a piece of me died with him. Grief overwhelmed me, yet I could not feel much of anything.  

That same year, my dear friend and mentor Judy died. Judy was an Episcopal priest. She was on her way to celebrate the Sunday service when she collapsed from a sudden heart attack. Judy died at the entrance to the church doors. This loss, so sudden and unexpected — I had just been with Judy a few days before — felt unbearable. Everything in me wanted to scream, “NO!”

Two years later, another close friend died. Denver was also an Episcopal priest. But while Judy had been very much a mentor, and surrogate mother figure, Denver, who was close to my age, was like a brother. I sat at Denver’s bedside with a few close friends, as he took his final breaths. He died after a long battle with AIDS. Now the battle was over. I was glad that his suffering was over. But the power of his loss grabbed me. I felt as though the floor of my insides opened and my guts would fall out.

One of the exceptional gifts I received leading up to and through these powerful losses was prayer. Judy, Denver, and a small group of friends taught me the power of prayer. The church community we were a part of had a serious commitment to prayer. Through the ups and downs in our personal and professional lives, we supported each other with prayer. We met weekly and prayed for peace and healing in our community and the world. We experienced profound intimacy and companionship from these years of shared prayer. 

As painful as the losses were, learning to pray through grief opened me up. Grief became life giving through shared prayer. These words from Weller are true: “Grief work (is) an ongoing practice of deepening, attending and listening. It is an act of devotion, rooted in love and compassion.” (Weller, p. 5)

Energy poured out of me to offer this power of praying through grief to others who were suffering loss. I created a weekly prayer group for anyone who was suffering through loss. The group expanded over several years, and I taught others how to facilitate it. I wrote essays about grief and prayer, which were published and distributed among several parishes.  

Unfortunately, grief is all but ignored in many church communities. The great irony is that death is a big deal in Christianity. What could be worse than the brutal execution of God’s Son, not to mention the betrayal by some of his closest companions? And with death comes grief.

Yet too often the message of the church is, Christians are welcome to cry on Good Friday. But by Easter Sunday, you better be overflowing with joy. 

Some pastors are skilled at sitting with those who are dying. Many clergy are terrific at leading funerals. But after the funeral, it’s time to move on. Forget the loved ones who remain. One problem is that little training is available to lay people. Many people (lay and clergy) view praying with others as an activity reserved only for the ordained.

The history of Christian art does not shy away from the suffering. Paintings through the centuries depict Mary and the Christ Child, Mary at the Cross, a Pregnant Woman with no place to give birth, the crucifixion, the betrayal, and the body of Jesus, lying lifeless in his mother’s arms, and so on. Artists have penetrated the heart of suffering woven through the Christian story better than many well-meaning church-goers. This is the encounter that Weller names:

 “… (G)rief is not a problem to be solved, not a condition to be medicated, but a deep encounter with an essential experience of being human… The lack of courtesy and compassion surround grief is astonishing, reflecting an underlying fear and mistrust of this basic human experience. We must restore the healing ground of grief. We must find the courage, once again, to walk its wild edge.” (Weller, pages xviii-xix)

QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION

  • Of the losses in your life, which were the most challenging? Why? What did you learn?
  • Consider these three quotes from Weller. How do you respond? Do any of these resonate with your experience of grief and loss? 
  1. “It is the bittersweet embrace of love and loss that sharpens our appreciation for those we love.” (Weller, page 26)
  1. “…. (W)e are burdened by undigested sorrows… Far too many of us suffer from broken hearts that remain unattended.” (Weller, p 23)
  1. “(G)rief is necessary to the vitality of the soil. Contrary to our fears, grief is suffused with life force. It is riddled with energy… It is truly an emotion that rises from the soul.” (Weller, pages 9-10)

In closing, here are words from St. Teresa:

“May today there be peace within.

May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.

May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.

May you be content knowing that you are a child of God.

Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. 

It is there for each and everyone of you.” 

― Teresa of Ávila

Feel free to post your reflections on this essay in the comments section. Thank you.

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IMAGES OF GOD & SELF

We hear the familiar words: “In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth…. and then separated light from dark…” (Genesis 1:1) This Day 1. On Day 6, we humans show. “God says, ‘Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness…’” (Genesis 1:26). And so we arrive, unique among God’s creatures, created “in the image of God”. 

But what does it mean to be created “in the image of God?” How are we to live our “God image” nature?

At its best, Christian theology, worship, moral teaching, and prayer function to guide us. Living our “image of God” nature means loving others as God has loved us, with a heavy emphasis on practicing forgiveness. “Loving others” means appreciating the dignity of each human life, regardless of class, race, gender or any other category. For Christians, Jesus Christ is the “way, the truth, and the life” whom we follow to live into our nature as an image of God.

As children and adults, we form our God pictures from experiences with trusted teachers, including parents, clergy, and friends, as well as scripture and other religious and non-religious writings. Images of God may also come to us through music, dance, art, architecture, and media as expressions of religious figures, scenes from scripture, or creative imaging of spiritual realities, like angels and demons.

We humans absorb these images as a way of making sense of God, of ourselves, and the world. Our images of God are powerful forces that shape our faith, our values, our self-identity, and how we see the world. We carry these God pictures with us, as images, feelings, intuitions, sensations, thoughts, and ideas. These images hold our aspirations, longings, doubts, and fears about who we are and our relationship to God. They may motivate us to do great things or help us show up for the routine of daily life. Our pictures of God show us who we think we are and who we are not; who we want to be and who we do not want to be. These inner perceptions of transcendent reality move, shape, and re-form over time throughout our lives. Our images of God help shape and inspire our values, what we care about for ourselves and the world.

Judeo-Christian scriptures present a wide range of varied and sometimes contradictory images of who God is. For example, God is a loving father, the creator of the universe, a royal king, a shepherd, a prophet, and a divine leader. Scripture also portrays God as an angry, jealous tyrant. For Christians, Jesus Christ is the ultimate image of God. And in the Gospels, images of Jesus abound. Jesus is a friend, lover, guide, prophet, healer, king, disgraced leader, not to mention a fraud.

This multiplicity of images has its corollary in our own minds. Our inner images of God are both conscious and unconscious images. Our childhood experiences with parents and other significant caregivers form our deepest, often unconscious images of God. These unconscious images may contract our conscious ones. For example, consciously, we may believe that “God is love.” But if Mom was caring but distant, we unconsciously project these qualities onto God and form a “caring but distant” God image. If Dad was angry, we may develop an image of God as the “angry father.” The “caring but distant God” and the “angry father God” show up in our deep responses to our life experiences, emotional reactions and behavior in relationships, work, and how we manage our lives.

We project onto God the qualities of those who deeply influence us, especially the qualities of our childhood caregivers. As we get older, we add to our images of God based on our experiences with teachers, authority figures, and clergy. Public figures, including movie stars, musicians, and other artists, political and sports figures, can shape our God pictures. 

Unconscious images of God become powerful forces in our inner terrain, shaping our capacity to trust. Notice that “made in the image of” means that how we perceive God affects how we perceive ourselves. As in the above example, if I hold an unconscious belief in God as an angry parent, who am I? I will probably see myself as a child in need of punishment or as a child who needs to escape from an abusive father (or mother). Our unconscious images of God and self underlie our tendencies to judge ourselves and others harshly or more easily trust in the goodness of self, God, and the world.

Ann Ulanov was a beloved teacher and theologian who created the Department of Psychiatry and Religion at Union Seminary in New York City. This was one of the first that brought together depth psychology and Christianity. Her book, Picturing God, is a collection of essays that masterfully explore the dynamics of images of God and self. This is important and often neglected terrain. She writes: “All of our most intimate and most important experiences with our own human depths, with other people, and with the living Spirit, are imbued with mixtures of consciousness and the unconscious…” (Ann Belford Ulanov, Picturing God, Cowley Publications, 1986, page 11)

Because our images of God and self are so intertwined, and often unconscious, it is valuable to spend some time reflecting on our lives and discover the array of images that we hold of God and ourselves. There is no one right way to do this work. Sometimes the process triggers old wounds. If this happens, seek help from a therapist spiritual director (clergy or lay), therapist, or close friend. The key is to meet with someone with whom you can have an honest conversation about faith and the dynamics of your inner experience. 

The process of exploring images of God and self helps us discover truth from illusion. As we examine our unconscious beliefs, we discover what is really driving our faith, like finding the “levers” of our faith. We learn to distinguish what we truly believe from what we say we believe; what we have been told to believe. This can be deeply healing. In engaging this process of examination, our faith becomes more alive, vibrant, and authentic. This is holy work. 

“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.” (John 15: 1-4)

REFLECTION EXERCISE:  IMAGES OF GOD AND SELF

This exercise brings to awareness how some of your images of God and self have formed. This can be a powerful exercise and may evoke deep emotional reactions. If at any point you feel overwhelmed, stop. Take time to re-ground and nourish yourself with some healthful activity, like reading a fun book, taking a walk, spending time with a friend, meditating with scripture, etc. If you feel ready, come back to the exercise. If not, let it go for now.

Set aside 30-45 minutes for this exercise when no one will disturb you. You will need paper and pen. You may choose to use a spiral notebook.

1. Begin with prayer. Ask for God’s guidance as you reflect on your life experiences.

2. Make a list of your significant caregivers (parents and/or others) from your early childhood (birth through 12 years old). Remember: we form our deepest (often unconscious) images of God from our experiences with early caregivers, which we project onto God. Often, these images are unconscious. 

3. Select 2 or 3 people from your list. If comfortable, include at least one of your parents.  

4. For each person, make a list of his/her qualities that stand you most remember. Include both positive and negative qualities. For example, positive qualities might include loving, tender, helpful, hard-working, playful. Negative qualities might include angry, mean, demeaning, shaming, critical.  

5. For each quality, ask yourself: “As a child, how did I feel when I experienced this quality in my caregiver?” For example, if my mother was a loving, soft-spoken person, I probably enjoyed being with her and felt safe. If she erupted in anger when I least expected it, I probably felt frightened and assumed I did something wrong. 

6. Reflect on how you may have projected some of these qualities onto God. These become your personal images of God. How do these images agree or conflict with your conscious belief about God and yourself? Are there times when you respond to God as you responded to your caregivers as a child? What beliefs about God and yourself do you want to cultivate? To let go? Write about this experience on paper or in a notebook or journal.  

7. Close with a prayer of thanksgiving, asking for healing in any areas of suffering that you may experience. 

Please share your responses to this post in the comments section. If you explored the reflection exercise, how did it go? 

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THE DIVINE INDWELLING

“Deep within us all there is an amazing inner sanctuary, … a holy place, a Divine Center, a speaking Voice… calling us home unto Itself.” (Thomas R. Kelly, A Testament of Devotion, HarperCollins Publishers, 1996, p. 3)

Thomas Kelly’s words remind us that God is within, inside our breath, calling us home. Christianity calls this inner presence the “indwelling of God.” The essence of the Christian journey is coming to know this inner presence. As we awaken to God who dwells within, we discover we are made of Love, and Love changes our lives forever.

Why is this journey so powerful?

Most Christian teaching emphasizes that God is everywhere, all around us, but stops short of teaching “God within.” Instead, followers hear a heavy dose of “you are sinful”, “praise God”, and “work hard to be better.” Such is the Christian program for “right living” and making God happy.

Awakening to the indwelling God is a different program. We discover our essential goodness, that God’s love is the fabric of our bodies and our lives. The journey toward the indwelling God is learning to see through God’s eyes. We come to know God’s deep caring for us, to experience His vision that sees us as precious. 

We see others as we are seen. God sees us as precious, we will see others as precious. This happens because we humans are social animals, we do not live in isolation. Rather, our relationships with one another shape us emotionally and physically. Neuroscience calls this process “attunement.” Attunement is a physiological process, an energetic resonance between people, that creates a sense of safety. We are like human tuning forks.

Attunement happens between mothers (and other caregivers) and their babies. Meeting a baby’s needs for touch and connection, as well as for food and clothing, allows the baby to be content and sleep peacefully. But when an infant is in distress, as any parent knows, the baby screams for attention. For the baby, screaming is the only way to communicate that his/her needs are not being met. In these moments, the baby feels in danger. This is a bio-physical process that moves through the whole nervous system. In effect, the whole body is screaming. When we meet the baby’s needs, we replace the threat of danger with a sense of safety, and the baby calms down.

As adults, we too need a sense of safety in our relationships. Relational safety is enormously important for human thriving, in adults, as well as infants and children. Neuroscientist Stephen Porges writes: 

“When we feel safe…, our nervous systems and entire bodies undergo a massive physiological shift that primes us to be healthier, happier, and smarter; to be better learners and problem solvers; to have more fun; to heal faster; and generally to feel more alive…. When we feel safe, we are capable of generosity, empathy, altruism, growth, and compassion… But when we don’t feel safe, our capacity for trust is diminished. Our ability to live, learn, and think critically evaporates in favor of an immediate need for survival.” (Our Polyvagal World: How Safety and Trauma Change Us by Stephen W. Porges and Seth Porges, Norton & Company, 2023, pages viii, xviii-xix.)

Christianity proclaims that our relationship with God is primary, our ultimate relationship of safety. God attunes to each of us, creating an inner zone of safety that is available to each of us. Our spiritual journey is growing in awareness of God’s attunement and our capacity to attune to God. The indwelling of God is Christianity’s language for naming this inner attunement, in scripture called “the refuge of God.” Psalm 57:1 puts it this way: “…in the shadow of your wings I will take refuge, till the storms of destruction pass by.”

Mary, the mother of God, plays a central role in the Christian story. This mother child relationship expresses the essential love (at its best) between mother and child. Mary’s presence is a profound echo of God’s indwelling presence, rooted in love. When we experience the indwelling God, we enter a relationship of love that seeps into every nook and corner of our being.

The great promise of Christianity is that the indwelling presence of God is available to all. My frustration with much Christian teaching and practice is its focus solely on the presence of God “out there”, with little attention to God who is “in here”. When we connect to God “in here,” everything changes.  

Readers of this blog know that I actively pursue forms of Buddhist meditation. For me, Buddhist meditation is, for me, a stepping stone to the experience of the indwelling Presence of God. Buddhist practice emphasizes naming and caring for our inner experience with kindness. Our inner experience — what scripture calls “the heart” — includes feelings, dreams, longings, needs, and desires. Becoming more intimate with my inner experience helps me see myself through God’s eyes, the eyes of unconditional love. 

Knowing the indwelling presence of God grounds us in love. As we see ourselves through God’s eyes, we see others in the same way. We become more loving. This enables us to live into what Jesus proclaimed as the most essential command: “Love each other as I have loved you….” (John 15:12)

We define a church community through the shared experience of liturgy, scripture, and prayer. Exploring the indwelling God through liturgy, scripture, and prayer transforms us. Faith becomes vibrant. We awaken, or re-awaken, to the aliveness of life. Thomas Keating: “Each level of life from the most physical to the most spiritual is sustained by the divine presence… The fundamental theological principle of the spiritual journey is the divine indwelling…” (Thomas Keating, et al., The Divine Indwelling, Lantern Books, NY, 2001, p.3)

We transform Christianity as we awaken to the power and beauty of God’s unconditional love for us all. 

May we grow in our love for one another as we grow in our awareness of God’s love for us.  

QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION

How do you see yourself through God’s eyes? Who do you see? How has your vision of how God sees you changed over the years? 

What hinders you from connecting with the indwelling presence of God? What helps you connect with the indwelling presence of God?

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Finding Refuge in Midst of War

“Our brokenness is the wound through which the full power of God can penetrate our being and transfigure us in God. Loneliness is not something from which we must flee but the place from where we can cry out to God, where God will find us and we can find God. Yes, through our wounds the power of God can penetrate us and become like rivers of living water to irrigate the arid earth within us. Thus we may irrigate the arid earth of others, so that hope and love are reborn.” (Jean Vanier, The Broken Body, Paulist Press, 1988)

Readers of this blog know I am a lifelong Christian who reaps significant benefit from Buddhist teachings and practices. It is said that the power of communal prayer, regardless of religion, seeps into the earth. I believe that was true of Kenyon College, my alma mater, an Episcopal school that at one time had been a seminary for men. It was at Kenyon that I first heard the voice of the Compassionate Buddha.

I arrived at Kenyon with deep cynicism about Christianity. In my freshman year, I took Professor Rogan’s Survey of World Religions. As we began the section on Buddhism, the readings referred to Buddha as the “Compassionate One”. The word “compassion” grabbed me, and I sat up straight. I knew beyond my understanding that I needed to pay attention. In my mind, I asked: “How is ‘Buddha, the Compassionate One’ related to Jesus Christ?”

That question began a journey that continues today, over fifty years later. I can say with assurance: Buddha, known as the “Compassionate One” does indeed have something to do with the “Love” that Christians talk about in church. It may be one of, if not the, defining quality of each figure. And I suggest that nurturing compassion may be the single most important thread in the spiritual journey. 

Consider this reflection from Catholic priest, writer and theologian Henri Nouwen: 

“We are all the Beloved. We are intimately loved long before our parents, teachers, spouses, children and friends loved or wounded us… That’s the truth I want you to claim for yourself. That’s the truth spoken by the voice that says, ‘You are my Beloved.… I have called you by name, from the very beginning. You are mine and I am yours… I have molded you in the depths of the earth and knitted you together in your mother’s womb. I have carved you in the palms of my hands and hidden you in the shadow of my embrace. I look at you with infinite tenderness and care for you with a care more intimate than that of a mother for her child. I have counted every hair on your head and guided you at every step… Nothing will ever separate us.’ ”  (Henri Nouwen, Life of the Beloved, The Crossroad Publishing Company, 1997, pages 30-31)

Nouwen’s language is specifically Christian, drawn from phrases of New and Old Testament scripture. These images convey a quality of compassion between God and the people that is as powerful today as it was among the ancient writers. Buddhism does not proclaim a “God,” nor is it, strictly, a religion. Rather, Buddhism emphasizes teaching and practices that help us clarify how our minds work. Buddhism aims to develop compassion and inner presence, inspired by the Buddha, to explore our own minds. Buddhist practice cuts across boundaries of religion, territory, and culture. 

As I write, the war in the Middle East is escalating. Perhaps, like many of you, I listen to the daily news, feeling a mix of sadness, anger, frustration, and confusion in our complex global politics. Calls for peace run parallel to the images of fear, desperation, and violence. Pockets of violence erupt around the world as people feel panic about what the future may bring.

No peaceful resolution is in sight, against the background of centuries of war, trauma, and suffering. The anguish of civilians on all sides is heart-breaking. The ongoing war tears families apart, as it leaves innocent civilians homeless. Too many are killed. It feels that no place is safe. 

Last month Tara Brach, a well known Buddhist teacher and author, interviewed Stephen Fulder. Mr. Fulder is a Buddhist peace activist who lives in Israel. He is the founder of the Israel Insight Society, a Buddhist meditation center. (https://www.tarabrach.com/conversation-tara-brach-stephen-fulder/) In his work, Mr. Fulder and his team run programs that bring together Israelis and Palestinians. They guide participants to listen to one another and share their individual stories. Slowly, over a few days, anger gives way to finding common ground as suffering human beings. A sense of genuine peace emerges as people name their deep suffering and longing for peace.

Mr. Fulder and his family live in Galilee, at the northern tip of Israel. He says that, for the moment, they have been safe and but some days he feels incapacitated the weight of fear and suffering. On these days, he puts himself on pause, gets quiet, and allows himself to feel. Buddhist teachings often guide us to “welcome our feelings.” However, Mr. Fulder (a longtime Buddhist practitioner) observes that, in this situation, the predominant feeling is “too much” — “too much pain, too much suffering, too many people in crisis…” Opening to these feelings can become re-traumatizing. He learns to move very slowly during this period.

This experience of “too much” is especially poignant during times of large-scale crisis. I lived in New York City during the 9/11 crisis. After the attack, the streets were unusually quiet. People on walked around in a state of shock; their eyes strangely blank. Similarly, in the early years of covid, we felt that sense of “too much”, as the virus quickly spread globally and the death rate skyrocketed.

Today, the events happening in the Middle East affect us, though we may live physically far from the battlefield. The sounds and images from the battlefields are deeply disturbing. Increasingly, outbreaks of angry protests erupt throughout our cities, including on college campuses. Our impulse may be to dismiss how overwhelmed we feel. Or we may collapse in despair, feeling helpless and weighed down with a sense, “This will never change.”

Mr. Fulder offers four helpful ways to deal more effectively when we feel so distressed. First, affirm (rather than deny) feeling overwhelmed. We can say to ourselves, or others, “This is too much. You feel deluged because the experience is overwhelming.” For most of us, the pain and suffering is beyond our experience. We may feel enveloped in frozen despair, with no way out. We cannot process what is happening. To honestly admit these feelings with an attitude of warm acceptance toward ourselves (and others) for having the feelings is the first step.

Second, focus on the small reminders that no matter how challenging the situation, generative life goes on. Put your hand on your heart and feel the rhythm of your heartbeat. Notice a tree standing tall, growing ever so slightly as you watch it. Take a breath and notice the temperature and smell of the air. Take a walk. Hug a close friend. Have a cup of tea. These are small but important reminders that life supports us in each moment. We have the power to tune into this generative reality.

Third, know that whatever is going on in the moment, things will change. The situation will change because change is happening all the time. Things may get worse before they get better, but the situation will not remain the same. Political voices get the most attention, but many more work behind the scenes to offer aid. We can choose to remain hopeful that this unseen work will help foster a positive outcome.

Fourth, and perhaps most important, to listen with kindness. In these fractured times, we may be easily tempted to argue rather than listen. But arguing only increases division and heightens emotions. Listening with kindness fosters a dynamic that can lead to healing. People across the political and ideological spectrum are suffering, far away and close to home. Most of us cannot change these situations directly. What you and I can do is listen to each other’s stories. We can also learn to listen with kindness to our own stories. According to Mr. Fulder’s suggestion, we learn to listen attentively with “kind eyes.” 

My husband and I have very different political perspectives. More than once we’ve each wondered, “How will I be able to go on with a person who thinks like this!” Learning to listen “with kind eyes” has saved our marriage. Beyond our disagreements, we affirm the values we hold dear for ourselves, our family, and for all; values like the freedom to live, work, and practice faith, availability of education, justice, and peace. Above all, we want for ourselves and others to enjoy the richness and beauty of life.

The stakes are higher now. Global situations are more complex. The reality of war is upon us and the threat of growing conflict is in the air. Let us never miss an opportunity to be kind.

QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION

How did you react to communal stress in the past, like war, health crises, climate emergencies, gun violence, or other challenging times? 

Today, how do you respond to the news at home and abroad? What helps you in this period of upheaval?

Are the suggestions offered in this post useful to you? Why or why not? 

If you like, post your responses in the comments section.

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FINDING REFUGE IN GOD

“Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge…” (Psalm 16:1)

I am a lifelong Christian. Finding refuge in God was a familiar phrase, threading through scripture. For instance, “… God is my rock, in whom I take refuge…” (Psalm 18:2); “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble”; (Psalm 46:1); “Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of Your wings…” (Psalm 36:7) These beautiful words convey a sense of safety and comfort, of God shielding us from danger. 

But hearing the words differs from experiencing refuge in God. For me, and perhaps like many of you, finding refuge in God did not come easily. The experience of refuge requires trust, and, for much of my life, trust was in short supply. Growing up, my family life was chaotic, dominated by my mother’s mental illness, and my father’s desperate attempts to support her, care for me, and pay the rent. Behind the scenes lay the traumatic experiences of my Russian and Irish grandparents, who fled from violence, seeking safety in America. 

I was born in the 1954. News reports of one assassination after another filled the nightly news. Television brought funerals of public figures, like John F. Kennedy, Robert Kennedy, and Martin Luther King, into my living room. I felt part of the thousands of people who lined the streets. Images from the Vietnam War dominated the airwaves, along with heated debates about American involvement, and fears of nuclear war.

Without trust, I excelled at being “self-reliant.” This is code for trying to control life, figure things out for myself and avoid asking for help. Self-reliance is not refuge. Rather, self-reliance is a way of living in fear — of the world, others, and God. Refuge means stepping beyond our own boundaries to reach out for shelter and guidance. It is the opposite of control. 

I came into adulthood riddled with fear. I feared God, other people, and Life itself. I carried distorted beliefs formed in childhood, feeling responsible for the problems in my family. I concluded that my family’s suffering was God’s way of punishing me and assumed that I was not good enough for God’s love. 

I was also full of idealism, believing in a future world of peace and love. This was the world that poured through the music of Peter Paul and Mary, Bob Dylan, and Judy Collins. I desperately wanted to believe in the God who “…will wipe every tear from their eyes….” (Revelation, 21:4) But that God seemed very distant. The God that I knew was a punishing, vindictive God. 

So what happened? How did I learn to trust God, to experience finding refuge in God? And to know finding refuge as a precious gem of faith?

In my early 30’s, I discovered Buddhist meditation as a doorway to the transformative power of Christ. The language of “taking refuge” is a central theme in Buddhism. Buddhist teaching emphasizes that, as human beings, we all need “refuge”. Life confronts each one of us with situations and challenges that overwhelm and push us beyond our limits. We need help beyond our ordinary sense of self to face these challenges.

Buddhist teaching refers to three forms of refuge, including taking refuge in “the Buddha, the Dharma, and the Sangha”. These are called “the three jewels.” For Christians, the meaning of these three forms of refuge maps easily to familiar Christian concepts. Refuge in the Buddha is akin to having faith in Jesus Christ; refuge in the Dharma (teachings) is akin to trusting the truth of Holy Scripture; and refuge in the Sangha is much like depending on the local parish community.  

I began attending Buddhist meditation retreats. These retreats offered long stretches of silent meditation. To my surprise, familiar memories of Christian experience floated through my mind. There were references to scripture, including specific phrases and images, like:

“Knock and the door shall be open unto you…. “ (Matthew 7:7)

“I have knit you together in your mother’s womb…” (Psalm 139:13)

“Who do you say that I am?” (Matthew 16:16) 

“And the angel came to Mary…” (Luke 1:28) 

“How many times must I forgive?” (Matthew 18:21)

“Our father who art in Heaven….” (Matthew 6:9)

“The Lord is my shepherd…” (Psalm 23:1)

At first, I tried to get rid of these, as if they were “enemies” from the past. With the meditation teacher’s guidance, I learned to accept that these memories are a normal part of meditation. They were a familiar part of my history in church life and naturally arose during meditation. I experienced a new depth of meaning in this familiar language. Outside the retreat setting, I took refuge in these words, phrases and images. They became like golden nuggets lighting my path. 

Over the years, my fears about myself and God transformed. Distorted beliefs that my family problems were my fault faded. I accepted those beliefs were merely a child trying to make sense of a confusing world. My trust in God’s love for me grew and my faith in God deepened. 

I explored Christian methods of meditation and came to Centering Prayer. Centering Prayer is a method of offering a contemplative meditation practice to lay people, created by Thomas Keating. Keating was a Catholic priest, theologian and Trappist monk, as well as a prolific writer. Many of Keating’s books have become modern classics. He supports readers in building a loving relationship with the Divine and helps them identify barriers to that relationship.

Keating’s words perfectly described my experience: 

“The Christian spiritual path is based on a deepening trust in God. It is trust that first allows us to take that initial leap in the dark, to encounter God at deeper levels of ourselves. And it is trust that guides the intimate refashioning of our being, the transformation of our pain, roundedness, and unconscious motivation into the person that God intended us to be… Because trust is so important, our spiritual journey may be blocked if we carry negative attitudes toward God from early childhood. If we are afraid of God or see God as an angry father-figure, a suspicious policeman, or a harsh judge, it will be hard to develop enthusiasm, or even an interest, in the journey.” (Thomas Keating, Intimacy with God, p. 1)

Slowly, I began to trust God, to surrender my distorted beliefs, attachments to control, fear and resentment. This surrender is life-giving. It allows me to trust, and to find refuge. Today I find refuge in God, like feeling a safe port in the storm. Finding refuge in God is like an arrow of faith. Some days the arrow is more a bolt of lightning; other days the arrow is more of a gentle breeze. However it shows up, finding refuge in God anchors me. I receive comfort, strength, and guidance that help me move through daily life. Finding refuge in God allows me to trust God, no matter what Life may bring.

We live in complex times, in our country, communities, and the world. Much of our political and social discourse is steeped in division. We don’t take time to listen to each other, especially those who hold opinions different from ours. Others, especially those who hold opinions different from ours, become “enemies”. Our words become weapons to silence others. Alas, religious language can create further division, to cause harm rather than heal. May the ancient words of the prophet Isaiah offer a more creative vision of finding refuge in God:

For You, O Lord, have been a refuge to the poor,

A refuge to the needy in their distress,

A shelter from the rainstorm and a shade from the heat.” (Isaiah: 25:4)

QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION

What does “finding refuge in God” mean to you? Does it come easily to you? Or, do you struggle to find refuge in God? What hinders you from finding refuge in God? What helps you find refuge in God? 

If you like, post your responses to these questions in the comments section.

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LOVE AT THE CENTER

My dad was an angry guy. His anger wreaked havoc at home and ruined many of his close relationships. A deeply broken heart lay behind the anger. Dad’s father died a premature death from alcoholism. Dad drank a lot, and was frightened that he, too, might die an early death.Dad’s deepest wound, though, was losing the love of his life, his wife (my mother) to mental illness.

Dad retired in 1990 from a fulfilling career. He looked forward to an active life in retirement traveling and enjoying his grandchildren. He was more at peace than I’d known him. The following year, however, a diagnosis of lymphoma changed everything. His peace and excitement about new life was gone. He endured months of painful and debilitating treatments which did not slow the progression of the disease. He felt betrayed by his body and life itself and again erupted in anger.

In 1992, he made a life-changing decision: to re-read the works of the philosopher Alfred North Whitehead, a deeply inspirational figure in Dad’s life. He went into seclusion to do this work, and re-emerged in 1993. To the surprise of those who knew him, he was at peace. The lifelong anger was gone, and he overflowed with a joyful, loving spirit. He was kind, curious, and funny. Dad’s physical demeanor changed dramatically — his eyes twinkled, his energy was strong despite failing health, and his mind was clear. 

This was nothing less than transfiguration.

Transfiguration is a process of deep interior change so profound that the physical form visibly changes. In Christianity, transfiguration refers to something extraordinary that happens to Jesus. In my last post, I wrote about the “Transfiguration of Christ.”  (https://incarnation-place.com/2023/08/11/transfiguration-of-christ/)  Here, I explore our essential human capacity to transfigure. 

Human capacity for transfiguration is written into our cells. For example, suppose I’m in the kitchen chopping vegetables and accidentally cut myself. What happens? The skin is broken and blood flows from the cut. Almost immediately the healing process begins. The flow of blood eases, then stops. A scab forms and in a few days falls off, leaving a scar which fades. 

From minor injuries to major surgeries and illnesses, the healing process is the same. Healing begins immediately after a wound occurs. We are programmed to heal. Healing written in our cells, bones, and organs, quietly moving with each breath. 

This built-in program for healing includes our minds and emotions, as well as our physical bodies. This is true no matter how old we are, regardless of culture, race, gender, or religion. We are programmed to heal! 

Our capacity to heal mind and emotions is especially important when there is a history of trauma.   Trauma is an injury to the mind. A plethora of current research shows that traumatic experience can change the actual physiology of the brain. These changes negatively affect cognitive brain function and normal emotional processing. 

Trauma triggers powerful emotions which can overwhelm the psyche. Working through the nervous system, the brain sends signals to shut down the experience of overwhelming experiences. This is a built-in process for our psyche to maintain safety. The power of the experience remains housed in the mind but outside of conscious awareness.

Carl Jung, one of the great founders of modern psychology, called experience that remains outside of awareness the “shadow.” The shadow is a repository of thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that we unconsciously hide from ourselves and others. However, this unconscious material can strongly influence our behavior, like a hidden computer program. When we are ready, the buried experience, including emotions like rage, fear, sadness, grief, confusion, and shame, come into our awareness to be healed. 

As unconscious material comes into our awareness, we may be surprised that an inner critical voice erupts. This voice tries to “beat back” these long held feelings which disrupt our inner experience. Cultivating an inner compassionate voice is especially helpful here. Compassion facilitates the healing process. How do we develop this inner compassionate voice? 

Buddhism offers pointed teaching about the power of compassionate presence in the healing of challenging emotions. Tara Brach is a Buddhist and a wise, eloquent teacher who is especially skilled at reaching an American audience. She grew up in the Unitarian Church, then later turned to Buddhism. She writes: “Through the decades, my relationship with prayer has emerged and deepened during encounters with grief, shame, fear, and despair. As I learned to sustain a real presence with those feelings, the pain of separation they revealed would unfold into deep sadness and longing. Over time, my yearning became increasingly clear: it was to belong to and be held by a larger source of love and presence.” (Trusting the Gold: Uncovering Your Natural Goodness, by Tara Brach, p.92). 

This was the process my dad went through, quietly, silently, in his own way, in his own time. One of the great lessons that I learned from witnessing my father’s process is that we are never too old or frail to heal. Though he was not a religious man, my dad healed spiritually and emotionally. As his inner wounds healed, the force of his loving spirit shone through his physical demeanor, while his cancer-ridden body neared death. His eyes sparkled, he joked easily, and was more relaxed than I’d ever known him.

There is an ancient Japanese technique of restoring broken pieces of pottery. Kintsugi puts the broken pieces together, using a liquid form of gold or silver as glue. The result is a vase that highlights the broken patterns, making the brokenness beautiful.  “With this technique it’s possible to create true and always different works of art, each with its own story and beauty, thanks to the unique cracks formed when the object breaks, as if they were wounds that leave different marks on each of us.” https://www.lifegate.com/kintsugi

For Christians, the hallmark of Jesus is his compassionate presence. The stories of the early followers capture the transformational effect of being in the presence of His Love. I remain captivated by the vision of Divine Love at the center of Christianity. Divine Love woven in the fabric of creation, Love that includes all. This Love holds us tenderly, through all the trauma and suffering that Life may bring, much like a divine unfolding of a kintsugi process of restoration and healing.

Christianity proclaims that Jesus Christ is the embodiment, the full expression of this Divine Love. “(Jesus) came to unite and ‘to reconcile all things in himself, everything in heaven and everything on earth’ (Colossians 1:19) Rohr p 7). Jesus teaches: “Love God with all your heart, mind and soul; and love your neighbor as you are loved.” The early followers surrendered their lives to follow Jesus. Their path was called The Way, the way of Love shown by Jesus Christ. This is the path of transfiguration.

We may think of Christianity as a finished thing. But it is not. St. Paul called the church, “the body of Christ.” This body of Christ” — like all bodies —  is in process of evolving. Christianity is being recreated, transfigured by the larger spiritual force that birthed Christianity more than two thousand years ago. God is still shaping Christianity, as He/She continues to shape us. 

This blog, Incarnation Place, is my attempt to name and participate in an enlivened Christianity that celebrates God’s creation of the human body throughout all cultures, across time and space.  The Love manifested in Jesus Christ is a doorway into the process of transfiguration that our human bodies are uniquely equipped for. 

Tell your own story of transfiguration. How have you experienced healing? How have you journeyed into your own inner being? Our flesh and bones carry these stories. They are the raw material that shapes our lives. We need to share our stories. Our stories need to be heard. In the telling, we discover our stories echo through the lives of others.

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